i'm half asleep and having some sort of crash

so this is gonna sound weird and woozy and i might even regret it tomorrow because of how awkward it'll sound

anyway this is for ShilohShadowtail 

i don't know how to start this really and i've only got about ten minutes to write this and i've already made at least seven typos but listen i love you so much. i know i probably don't say it enough. or maybe i say it too much. or maybe i don't say it in the right way. but i want you to know that whatever you want covered, i wanna cover it. i'm sorry if i don't help you enough and i'm sorry if i reply an hour late and i'm sorry if i seem unenthusiastic or self-absorbed or that i just don't listen. the truth is i care about you beyond all measure and there is absolutely no doubt about that. you're not just my sun or my moon, or even both. you're my entire solar system, my galaxy, my whole universe. you are a celestial woman who can only be described as heavenly and divine to the extent that i'm almost overwhelmed by how wonderful you are. and i know you don't realize it. and i know this sounds cheesy or over-exaggerated and i admit i'm hardly awake but that's when people tend to have less boundaries and spill more about how they feel and let me tell you i feel so much love for you, you NERD. but you're a beautiful nerd. and you're my nerd.
i'm sorry if you've been feeling upset lately and i haven't been there. and i apologize if i don't understand why you feel bad. or if i disregard it or even ignore you. i don't want to do that or to ever make you feel sad- or sadder- because you are so special and important to me. and just in general honestly. like i said, you're a goddess okay? and you mean the entire extent of the universe to me. which is a lot.
i want you to know that i am always here for you, whether you feel it or not. and i don't want you to ever be afraid to talk to me or to apologize for confronting me. it makes me happy to help you and love you and you're just so important

anyway i have to go now and there's a lot more i wanna say but i don't have time. i love you. good night.